Thursday, September 4, 2008
So my little baby, my first born daughter, my little angel-head...is now, officially, a grade 1 student. I really can't even believe it. Gawd. It seems like yesterday I was bringing her home from the hospital in her little car seat (that seemed just huge for her at the time). It seems like just yesterday that she was my little tiny baby that I took for huge walks all over our old neighbourhood - all bundled up because it was minus 20 degrees outside (I believed she absolutely HAD to have a big long walk, every day, no matter what). It seems like just yesterday that she was yelling out from her crib in the middle of the night, "I want my Nib-bow-leeeettt!" ("Niblet" = Soother). It seems like just yesterday that we noticed her first tooth poking through her gums as we took her to a cabin up north. All of those things, everything, they all seem like they just happened yesterday.
But, no, she is actually 5 years old now. Maddie Mae: First Grader. The years have flown by. Sometimes I just want to hold her and squeeze her so tight that time just stops for a bit. Pretty soon she won't even want anything to do with us anymore. Dave laughs that he is looking forward to that time. I'm not! I like that she wants to be with us. I like that she wants us to go sit beside her to watch a show. I like that she still wants her snuggles in the morning. It won't be long before I look back on all of that and think that seems like it was just yesterday, too.
Ouch. My head is starting to hurt from writing this. I was just saying to my friend, Shan, how this year has been so much easier than last year. I didn't even get the least bit choked up at the bus-stop. It just seemed like a continuation of kindergarten. But, it isn't. It isn't a continuation...it's a "moving on"...just like time...and, now, as this all hits me it's starting to get just as hard all over again!
I love you so much Maddie. I'm so proud of you and...
I kind of wish I could drive over to your school, pick you up, and bring you back home right now.